I Have So Much Love For My Daughter!
While I was pregnant with EK, I wondered how I could have more love in my heart and life to share with another child. I actually worried about this. Enough to make me lose sleep and feel depressed that I was going to ruin a child who had a mom that loved her brother ohso much more than her, causing her to feel neglected.
I appreciate doing the caring for her as a baby more than I did in the past, too. It feels more special and sweet for me to do these mothering tasks. I think its because I already know how to do it and I haven't done these things for a long time.
If I were still feeling the post-partum emotions I experienced six weeks ago, I would be sobbing, sad, joyful tears about how fortunate we are to have a healthy girl and one who is photogenic and a good sleeper, too.
Now those things have passed and I am able to appreciate her without needing to calm down and get a Kleenex.
So that was a bit extreme. But I can just lump that under the label of "crazy pregnancy hormones and emotions", right?
I was wrong. There is more love here.
The love just grew and it was the TIME and ENERGY that I should have been concerned about. Those things did not double when there were two kids.
But the love did.
I love this baby so.
It is a blessing to me to just hold her and feel her soft skin as she lies draped over my shoulder.
I appreciate her as a baby so much.
I appreciate doing the caring for her as a baby more than I did in the past, too. It feels more special and sweet for me to do these mothering tasks. I think its because I already know how to do it and I haven't done these things for a long time.
If I were still feeling the post-partum emotions I experienced six weeks ago, I would be sobbing, sad, joyful tears about how fortunate we are to have a healthy girl and one who is photogenic and a good sleeper, too.
Now those things have passed and I am able to appreciate her without needing to calm down and get a Kleenex.
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